Professor Kaye Harry’s neurosurgeon told us 95 percent of people diagnosed with a Glioblastoma Multiforme ( GBM) tumour die within 52 weeks of diagnosis. Harry was dead by 50 weeks, becoming a mere statistic for neuroscience but he was so much more to us. He was given a Police Honour funeral. The Funeral was recorded at the time and last night on the 19th anniversary of his passing I felt the urge to view it. To us he was a husband and father and a whole lot more. This is us, 19 years on.

At 32 and a mum of young children you shouldn’t be at a funeral directors choosing what clothes to bury your husband in or standing in a room of caskets deciding which to buy to lay him to rest in. This is my story of how I came to be in this moment and my journey with grief. I hope one day if my kids ever want to know more detail about what happened they read this. This is also for them. Who knows when or if the time will ever be right for them to read this.